das alles ändert nichts daran

das alles ändert nichts daran,
dass du mir wirklich fehlst.

(maya saban + cosmo klein)

congratulations, i hate you

no one ever said that life was fair and i'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are what you want to be and i'm not comes as no surprise
but dont expect me to be happy for you
and dont smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
i dont want your pity... i hate your pity

(alesana)

the irony of dying on your birthday

i'll lock myself alone in a room,
drinking until the clock strikes two
with just a pen, a pill and some paper
and maybe i do not understand
so pour another please
this should foul up the person that i long to be

(senses fail)

nichts in der welt

liebe ist nur ein traum.
eine idee. und nicht mehr.

(die ärzte)

if winter ends

i dreamt of a fever,
one that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart.
with heat to melt these frozen tears
burned with reasons as to carry on.
into these twisted months i plunge without a light to follow
but i swear that i would follow anything
just get me out of here.
and you get six months to adapt
then you get two more to leave town.
and in the event that you do adapt
we still might not want you around.
but i fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
but i know that that's impossible now.
and so i drink to stay warm
and to kill selected memories
'cause i just can't think anymore about that
or about her tonight
but i give myself three days to feel better
or else i swear i'll drive right off a fucking cliff
'cause if i can't learn to make myself feel better
how can i expect anyone else to give a shit?
and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere
just get me past this dead and eternal snow
'cause i swear that i'm dying, slowly but it's happening
and if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere
just take me there, just take me there, just take me there
and say, and lie to me, and say, and lie to me, and say
it's going to be alright

(bright eyes)

a perfect sonnet

but i guess i'll have to settle for a few brief moments
and watch it all dissolve into a single second
try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line

(bright eyes)

emotion sickness

erupt again ignore the pill
and i won't let it show
sacrifice the tortures
orchestral tear cash-flow increase delete escape defeat
it's all that matters to you
cotton case for an iron pill
distorted eyes
when everything is clearly dying

(silverchair)